I can't do this.

this english research paper is turning my brain to mush, I cannot do it. I dont care that it'll be late but I need SLEEP.

just a quick post. I read that " a goal without a plan is just a wish". I'm just a bit confused when it comes to certain someones. One person calls to say goodnight. The other claims a love unSHOWN and gives a dry goodbye. What to make of this? Oh, nothing. I;ll just focus on school and whatnot...right....*sigh*
G'Night.

"Interested"

..."but there are a few people that I'm 'interested' in." ---"haha, 'innnnnterested' , you're funny...so who are you quote unquote interested in?"---"I've got a list. lemme tell you..."

Oh late night conversations, surely a part of on adolescent/teenager living in a time of cellphones, unlimited mobile to mobile minutes, and the greatness of non-perishable rollover minutes. the generation before me, well the people born in the early 80s or late 80s I guess sure don't know exactly what I mean, I think because in their times of when they liked someone, they wouldn't be able to use their house phone to talk to that person he or she liked. I mean, if they did use their house phone, they definitely ran the risk of having their parents listen in to their conversation on the other side of the line. But not with cellphones! With the cellular device we are able to talk as freely as we would like! Unless you have my parents who look at the number of minutes that I've used for the cellphone bill term which in that case, you're "type screwed".

So I will only be 16 for another 6 days. Interesting, huh? When I'm 17, I'll be a year away from being considered a legal adult. Now that's a strange thought for me.
On a more sunny note...
I seriously cannot wait for Toy Story 3~ The first movie came out in 1995, God...I was only two years old at that time. To think I'll be 17. JEEZ!! I'm getting old! Haha, not too old yet because I don't consider 5O old. B)

Going back to that quote at the beginning...it refers to a certain someone who likes to call me a loser. We have fights. He calls me adorable. I call him mean. He calls me a loser.I tell him I'm a winner. He laughs. Says he can't believe. Then I think to myself, "it's time to return to reality." I then realize this is the real thing. Just, it all seems like a teenage mirage. Something I shouldn't even reach for for I know it really isn't there. Or what do I know? Not much at the moment. And at the moment, I don't need to worry about that. PSH! BOYS. PSHHH. Who needs them.
Girls do, that's who :P But they're really the least of my worries and I know not just any boy who tries to flatter me will certainly reach my heart. For the time being, I love our friendship.

I should SO be asleep. Goodnight.


--Photo Credit to my third leg in the tripod gang Emily Huang.♥ (check out her blog @ kisstheskies.tumblr.com )

Riposte Means a Return...

When I started writing on here again after december 'O9, I had a friend in mind. Not a really good friend but...an acquaintance that I've gotten to know a little more about in the past year & a 1/2. He was feeling a lot of feelings...a feeling overload. So I figured that I would write here in hopes that he might see what I say since it doesnt make that much of a difference.
Anyways, here are the definitions of Riposte:

1 : a fencer's quick return thrust following a parry
2 : a retaliatory verbal sally : retort
3 : a retaliatory maneuver or measure
So there you go :T

All is well, it's Sunday and I'm debating whether if I should go to church today or not. If I don't I'll be cleaning my room (for sure this time ) and I'll then immerse myself into my bible. Either way, it has to be a good day :)

SAT; Let's GO!

UHHHHH SATs are tomorrow!!
I should be looking over my study books...
so I'll make today's post kind of short and simple, for YOU the lone stranger who actually reads this :)
--Today was a great day at school, my math teacher gets a little more confident in me each day, a LITTLE...my AP Human Geography teacher told us stories for a whole period in which I fell asleep in the last 10 minutes, apologized and he said he didn't care (woo!)...my English teacher was out and we had a super nice SUB & I tried to sleep in there as well :D...Physics class was the same as it usually was, I fell asleep but seldom and briefly...gym was gym, we jogged in Fort Greene park, it was a nice day for a plain old walk...chorus was great, we're trying to nail down major, minor, melodic+ harmonic minor scales and my teacher was in a great mood...spanish was alright, she's the only teacher really trying to make us work hard...U.S. history was good, we reviewed for a final next week...and sociology was the same, I fell asleep here and there. I got home and I slept for a good amount of time, showered and here I am :)

Good luck to anyone taking the SAT tomorrow morning<3

What do you say...

How about tonight,
you and me,
we go find some grass
& just lay.
Simply lay and of course
we won't forget the bug spray. We can just lay.
We can talk about the future
& just forget about today.
We can talk about our problems
how sometimes things just don't go our way.
I want to just lay
I want to forget confusion and forget the disarray.
I want to find a playground so that you and me can play.
We can find a beautiful night harbor
or just hang out by the bay.
So, what do you say?
How about you stay here forever...just stay.
We can watch the stars twinkle and the grass sway.
How about we start now, don't delay
We'll carry on forever without worries of clichés.
So what do you say?


--------I'm caught in a wave of thought.
*I got a new coffee maker! :D *

Serene & IN between~

The sun is still high in the sky but it's definitely getting ready to set.

I looked at the last post briefly, read I said something about coffee and then I remembered: I CANT MAKE COFFEE AT HOME ANYMORE!! the coffee pot cracked so it'll be a while until we get a new one. *Sigh* Oh well...I'm sure one won't just fall out of the sky...that one will break too!!

I met with my college advisor today and left on a good note. The schools I should check out are pretty good! And NYU was on the list ♥ *My dream school!* When she looked at my major-interests, she saw Christian Studies and said, "So you have a Christian background?" and I replied, "Mhm!" and she sort of reluctantly said, "Are you very Christian? Like, you go to church.." and I smiled. "Yes." That made me laugh..."very Christian". Goes to show the views people have about it. All this talk about college and SATs makes me feel..OLD. :/ I'm growing up people...I'm growing up.

Nation of Procrastination

YES.
I just stopped writing my sociology paper that's due technically today to write on this blog. Why? Because I must share with you that PROCRASTINATING IS BAD AND UNHEALTHY.

Oy vey :( I will need a lot of coffee when I wake up!

But I can say that I'm happy. I realized that God is great. I mean, I always knew so, I'm just letting you know that i remembered that God is great because I was feeling very under the weather for the most part this weekend, which is why I didn't finish this essay for sociology earlier. I literally have one paragraph to go but again...here I am, blogging.

I really hope I don't get carpal tunnel syndrome like my pops. Except he didn't get it from typing. ALRIGHT! off to paper land so I can go Mimis like us hispanics say ;)<3

OH & by the way? I'm not in love. Nor i like. I'm in the process. :P