Is it or No.

Is it too early, please tell me, or is it too late.
You always leave me to just sit here and wait.
Oh how I wish that I could just get you to taste
that feeling of suspense, it isnt that great.
But who's to say that you're not just thinking really hard
and who's to day that you're not just a broken mirror and I'm bound to cut my self with one of the shards.
I hardly ask you to be straight up
Sometimes you talk to me as if you've already given up.
Unless there's something that I just dont know
there's some sort of left behind emotion that you just won't show
So we can't grow
We cannot continue on this way
If it me who you're holding back from we can't try another day
We cannot find a way until you find your way.
Until you can finally say that you're ready.
Then we can both be satisfied.
We'll be able to be happy that at least we tried and at least
we tried to find a way to make repairs inside
but alright, the night is getting long and the morning soon with come.
I'll just keep writing on, give my love, and I'll save you some.
( 1 AM)

How to give 100% When All You're Getting Is Zero

Well, that would be a great conversation starter but it's too bad that I don't even know how to answer that question. I find myself in that position more than enough times. I wish there was a way to tell the other person, "I want more SO GIVE ME MORE." without sounding rude or demanding. But we can't leave our needs and wants left untended, we can only do so for so long. You also can't make someone else feel a certain way...you also can't lower your own standard...don't go looking for gold in muck, you'll just get stuck and left there to sit in you're own untimely and unneeded desire.
^^ Did that make sense to you? I wouldn't be surprised if it didn't, it didn't very much to me.

Anyways. My day; it was alright. I took my U.S. History Regent, I went home, went back to school to get my senior picture taken, then back home. I played my guitar for a bit, baked cookies and then went to church. I had a decent time there but my heart was left a little tipped to the side. I would say it's because someone gave a it a little nudge but left it like that, didn't bother put it back in place. But they don't know they did that, they're oblivious to emotion sometimes, so it seems. I left church, went to the supermarket and bought chocolate and marshmallows. I got home, sat with my family, then I went to my room to make an important phone call. The phone call turned out to be nothing. I might as well have called this person and said, "Hey, I'm going to be a clown for the rest of my life and walk on a tight rope for a living" and they would have said, "Well alright then." So yes, that left me quite annoyed. I went back to the yard, had one smore and said it was enough. I had a good time with the parentals and the sister and her bf. Now I'm in my room. Woo.

I sound way more "down" than I should be. Damn. Hope I'm not PMS-ing, now THAT would suck! Haha? Yeah, I don't know. Until next time.