What happens when the person who you spent four months crying over suddenly tells you they've loved you all along. This person has failed to communicate these words directly across but hints it in every other aspect. This person reminds you that he/she is just as confused as you are.
What happens?
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Enough is Enough
My desire to blog is back. I figured that I might get too personal here or it'll become my substitute diary but hey, this could be step one for Censorship. ACTUALLY the main reason I'm back is that I've been reading the blog of one of my friends lately and it sort of bugs me to see how much emotion they are going though and I guess I write this in hopes that this person might one day look over and see that I've been the incognito friend all along.
Oddly enough I probably should be cramming for my last AP test that's on Friday but...*oh well*
Strangely enough the person that I aim this towards is the person I seem to have never reached out to. Let's go one step forward: this so-called "friend" is a guy who one could describe as more of an acquaintance. And he's pretty much facing what I went through...the last and first time I had posted up something here! :P Well anyways, part of me says that I should try to dig deeper into his emotion since I can very well relate to him. The other part of me says to stay out of it because analyzing a boy's emotions might be just as complex as the time I had to dissect that gross frog in my Freshman Bio class...
Aside from relating to him, I have so many suggestions for him but once again the fact the me and him aren't cool in that sense kind of intimidates me. I would also definitely suggest a good friend of mine named Jesus. Sure it'd seem like the "typical Chrisitian" thing to do, you know, "Hi, I know you're feeling pretty low right now and all you need is Jesus!! *insert cheesy smile here*". Honestly he could really use some Jesus with all that emptiness he's feeling. But as "they" say, I'm just sayin'. Such a fine young man too and yet he's beating himself up over what might be the most common experience amongst teenagers : The Breakup. [>.<]
Now, to my precious sleep and awakening to the day-before-my-AP-exam.
Oddly enough I probably should be cramming for my last AP test that's on Friday but...*oh well*
Strangely enough the person that I aim this towards is the person I seem to have never reached out to. Let's go one step forward: this so-called "friend" is a guy who one could describe as more of an acquaintance. And he's pretty much facing what I went through...the last and first time I had posted up something here! :P Well anyways, part of me says that I should try to dig deeper into his emotion since I can very well relate to him. The other part of me says to stay out of it because analyzing a boy's emotions might be just as complex as the time I had to dissect that gross frog in my Freshman Bio class...
Aside from relating to him, I have so many suggestions for him but once again the fact the me and him aren't cool in that sense kind of intimidates me. I would also definitely suggest a good friend of mine named Jesus. Sure it'd seem like the "typical Chrisitian" thing to do, you know, "Hi, I know you're feeling pretty low right now and all you need is Jesus!! *insert cheesy smile here*". Honestly he could really use some Jesus with all that emptiness he's feeling. But as "they" say, I'm just sayin'. Such a fine young man too and yet he's beating himself up over what might be the most common experience amongst teenagers : The Breakup. [>.<]
Now, to my precious sleep and awakening to the day-before-my-AP-exam.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
First Off
It's about to be 1 AM (well when I started) and I'm awake conversing with a good friend of mine. I have the song Shine On by Mathias Adernele on constant replay. Today has been a bit rough on my mind. Well, first off I'll explain why I decided to blog; I love to write & I'll write whenever my hands aren't too lazy to pen. I also feel like I have many thoughts that other people share but don't like to share or whatever. My friend Chi also motivated me to blog so here I am :) Moving on...
Today certainly has been an interesting day. I slept in till 2 PM & organized old class notes. My parents arrived home maybe 6 or so hours later & I realized they weren't at best terms with each other and I definitely had some cheering up to do. Little did I know, later on that night, being right now, I would need some cheering up of my own.
I declared this to be a great time of change. I realized that things are changing big time around me. Not only am I growing up, but so are the grown-ups around me and it turns out that I've been playing a role in this grand change. The main overseer of this all is surely God. I think He has something overwhelming planned and to me, every day its like I'm some lottery-crazed fanatic who is scratching at her lotto card, hoping to discover something that will bring her great joy.
Not only this but if my little heart was a cartoon character, it would be holding its breath right now because the person it has this great appreciation & love for does not feel the same for it, so it thinks. Basically, I'm facing unrequited love, "love that is not openly reciprocated, even though reciprocation is usually deeply desired. The beloved may or may not be aware of the admirer's deep affections." (thanks Wikipedia) I honestly don't know what "This Guy" feels. I don't know if he even knows how he feels. You can call me love dizzy & I think I'll be that way for a way.
Today certainly has been an interesting day. I slept in till 2 PM & organized old class notes. My parents arrived home maybe 6 or so hours later & I realized they weren't at best terms with each other and I definitely had some cheering up to do. Little did I know, later on that night, being right now, I would need some cheering up of my own.
I declared this to be a great time of change. I realized that things are changing big time around me. Not only am I growing up, but so are the grown-ups around me and it turns out that I've been playing a role in this grand change. The main overseer of this all is surely God. I think He has something overwhelming planned and to me, every day its like I'm some lottery-crazed fanatic who is scratching at her lotto card, hoping to discover something that will bring her great joy.
Not only this but if my little heart was a cartoon character, it would be holding its breath right now because the person it has this great appreciation & love for does not feel the same for it, so it thinks. Basically, I'm facing unrequited love, "love that is not openly reciprocated, even though reciprocation is usually deeply desired. The beloved may or may not be aware of the admirer's deep affections." (thanks Wikipedia) I honestly don't know what "This Guy" feels. I don't know if he even knows how he feels. You can call me love dizzy & I think I'll be that way for a way.
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